First Post after a month of silence

Dear Readers,

I know that I’ve let you down. But I am back. That’s the only thing I wanted to tell you. Please understand if I am only going to post once a month for a minimum. I know this isn’t much. And I know you might be impatient by now. But I have to keep it to a minimum because I failed last semester.  This doesn’t mean that i’m out of High School but it means that I might get kicked out if I fail next semester and I really can’t do this. So I’ve gotta get better. Which means I’ll have to get better grades. So I’ll have to study more effectively than last semester.  Sorry for letting you down. And I know you might think I’might dumb but I’m not. At least I hope I’m not. I hope you don’t hate me now. Right now I’m in NYC. We’ve got holidays. But they end on Monday. So on Monday there’ll be school again. But I’ll make a post next Sunday for sure. I was thinking I could make some sort of Journal. Let me know what you think in the comments. Thank you in advance.  I know this isn’t much right now, but I’m writing this from my cell phone so I guess it’s okay.  I hope you are all doing good. You guys are the best. Keep your heads up and keep on going. You’re stronger than you think you are. And smarter than you may think you are. I guess I’ll stop it right now. So goodbye. Have a nice day or night or whatever time it is where you live.

Bye 🙂

 

Happy First Blog-anniversary !

Hey Guys,

This was how I started my first blog post. And I really didn’t know anything about blogging back then. I’ve got to admit I still don’t know everything about blogging but I’d say I’ve improved. This was how it first started. I had read one of my favorite books once again in which the main character is a blogger. She’s got a blog about, big question, books! So, one morning I thought ( actually a year ago), why don’t make a blog? Why not just try it? As you all know, I did. I had now idea how to write good reviews, and I don’t want to be arrogant here, but I think I’m much better than in the start. A lot of things changed. Life changed, High School started, interests changed and I have changed myself. But that’s good. Because this is why life’s interesting. Because there are changes. I didn’t think that many people would like my blog. There are so many other book bloggers that are so much better than me. But that’s not what it’s about, right? It’s about that each blog, person or being is unique and great in it’s own way. I wouldn’t have dreamed about having 100 followers. People that were actually reading what I thought and liking it. And I am so thankful to all of you. You helped me through very shitty times, and you were happy with me in the good times. I’ve learned so much with you. And about life. I’ve found friends  on here that will possibly last a lifetime. Especially one friend that I gladly count as one of my best friends, even though I’ve never seen her, never talked to her for real, she knows some things about me that not even my closest friends know. Or they do know about it but not that deeply. I’m really looking up to her. She’s so strong. And I feel like she really gets me. In a way I don’t even get myself. Go check out her blog if you haven’t already she’s great. It’s Aspen and if you read this, Aspen, know that I am glad to know you. I can’t believe how fast a year can go by. How many things can change in 12 months. It seems like a long time for the waiting, for those who look back it’s gone too fast. That’s how it works. It’s been a year that I have started this blog and I am so happy about it. Thank you all. THANK YOU!!!

Today I celebrated with my friends. And as you can see, there was even cake. It was a small celebration but it meant much to me. As I can’t celebrate with you in person I will do it in a Q&A post. Don’t worry, it will be there soon. But to do a Q&A there have to be questions, you can ask whatever you want to know except too personal stuff like address, Name, family. Well you can ask them, I just won’t answer them. As a present for you, you can write me any suggestions you’d like to hear as well as book reviews you’d like to hear. I hope you are all great and that life’s going well for you. I hope you all love yourselves. I want you to know that you deserve to be happy, because everybody of you does. I’ve always believed in the good of people, when I was little I used to think that nobody was born bad so they had to have something good in themselves. I still believe it, most of the time. But there’s bad people too, people that hurt you, people that are happy when they see you crying. Everybody has to learn that. In one way or another. But please don’t give up on believing in the good,even if it’s hard sometimes. Don’t give up on people and don’t give up on yourselves. I want you to be happy about the small things and cry if something makes you sad. Never be ashamed of crying. Crying shows that you are strong. Because crying shows you don’t lie to others or yourself when you feel shitty. You simply are yourself. And last but not least Be yourselves. If people don’t like the real you they don’t matter and the ones that like the real you won’t mind flaws.Because after all, we’re all humans.

I am glad to have you all and to have kept this blog. Have a nice day, night or whatever time it is.

Bye

100 followers and a Q&A

Dear Readers,

Or should I say YOU 104 AWESOME, WONDERFUL, AMAZING, GREAT AND BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE. THANK YOU SOO MUCH. ALL OF YOU. EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU. THANK YOU SOO MUCH. IS THIS EVEN TRUE? IS THAT POSSIBLE? YAAAAAAAAAAY. OMG. THANK YOU!!!!!!!

Maybe that was a bit stupid, I know. But I really don’t care. Because right now I am happy. I’d love to thank all of you each and hug you but since we’re on that funny planet called blogosphere in the Galaxy called Internet, I can’t. But consider yourself as hugged and possibly kissed as you’re reading this. You are so important to me and I wanted to show you how much you matter. I really wouldn’t know what to do without you. My first follower was Shay she showed me what it meant to be on the blogosphere in the first place. She’s got an awesome blog and is awesome herself. And Shay, if you read this you should know that I am not lying. My hundredth follower was Dice he made me jump and freak out, running around in my room and squeaking because he gave me my pre-first-blogversary present. In between I want to thank Aspen because she’s just great. She’s the funniest person to talk to and well she’s a good person. A really good person. She helped me so much without even wanting something in return. Thank you Aspen. Let’s move on to a different subject. Soon mycrazyobsessionwithbooksandenglish16 will be 1 year old. Believe it or not one year can go by soo fast. Well it’s not yet one year. But almost. You are all great. You helped me through shitty times and told me it would get better. You encouraged me to keep blogging and to keep writing. Thank you. To celebrate this I will  do a Q&A. But I need you to help me. I’ve never done this before and I have no Idea how to do it. Could you please help me with the in the comments? I’d be very thankful. I give you something in advance which is that you may ask any Question except too personal Questions like Home, Name, Address, you know stuff like that. There is no specified subject in this Q&A so ask what you want to know. I guess that’s all for today. And hopefully I will write a review soon so stay tuned for that. I may post some of my poems. Or I may write a Life Update. Let me know what you’d rather want from me. I hope you are all doing wonderful.

Bye I guess

PS: Just that you know THANK YOU !

PPS: Just that you know I’m randomly filling that post because I don’t want to stop it!

PPPS: That doesn’t even exist. Bye for real this time.

She’s falling

Don’t you see

She’s falling

Don’t you hear her

She’s screaming

 

She’s falling

She’s trying to

Get a hold of

Something solid

 

But her hands

Can’t seem to reach

It, because there’s

Nothing left to hold

 

Her everything is

Gone forever, there’s

No turning back

Not now, not tomorrow

 

I want to keep

her from falling

But I can’t

I won’t stop her.

 

 

Beginning of a story

Dear Readers,
This is the beginning of a story I’ve been writing at lately. I hope you like this. If you don’t tell me in a fair feedback what to do better. So here we go. I’m doing this for the first time.

The sun was already shining brightly through the curtains when I woke up. Again I had slept in. It sucked. And if that wasn’t enough, the shower didn’t work. I’d have to fix it soon. Mom couldn’t do it. She’d been that way since, well since dad had died. She was sleeping all night and day. First I’d thought it would pass, like every grief did one day. But as much as I hoped, it didn’t. She wasn’t going to wake up for fixing the shower. She wasn’t even going to wake up to just say ‘good morning, honey’ like she used to when I was little. But I didn’t have time to think of it now. I had to get to school. So I just grabbed my bag and got to my car. I’d be late for class. But who cared, anyways? They never did. But then again, I’d have to get through it, like everything else. As I pulled into the parking lot the warning bell had already rang. I hurried into class. Maths. My absolute worst class. I sat down and class began. As boring as always our maths teacher explained some Trig. I was dreading to have break. Next class. English. That’s where I noticed him. He came through the door and sat down right beside me. ‘Hey’ he said ‘I’m Jason. And well I’m obviously the new kid.’ He looked hot. Jason was tall, had beautiful green eyes, dark wavy hair and smelled of woods. Oh really. What was I thinking? I hadn’t even known him for five minutes. ‘Oh umm, well I’m Ashley. Not new here obviously.’ As if I had to say this. ‘ Nice to meet you Ashley’ and then class began. The morning passed as usual. With the exception that I now had someone sitting next to me in English. Then lunch came and I already expected to be alone for myself eating lunch, as always. But I had been wrong. There he was. No wait, there was this new boy that didn’t attract me in any way. Better. Well that wasn’t exactly the truth but it was definitely better. I took a tray of something that should be a baked potato and some meat. There was a table with no people. That’s where I sat down, as always. Then Jason sat down next to me. ‘ You mind if I join you? See you’re the only one I know so far.’ Really? I couldn’t help but try not to smile or freak out. ‘ No, not really. And in the matter of a fact you already sit here.’ We ate in silence. An awkward silence. Well, then somehow afternoon went by. And by the end of the day I was in a really bad mood. The strange things started again. I knew, because they always did when I was excited, frightened or angry. But I had learned to control it somehow. Sometimes it still didn’t work. I went home and thought about it. And I knew that there would be more. But first I had to get some milk. I was obsessed with milk. I took a sip. Ahhh, that felt good. My school bag was laying untouched in the corner. I opened it and took out some paper and a pen. I started writing a story. Which was what I always did when it started again. Because in these stories I had control of things. I could decide who was treated badly and who was not. I could decide what problems they had. And I could decide who lived and who died. So I started. It helped. But then I got distracted. The doorbell rang. Who would that be at 7:30 p.m.? I took my time to open it. What I saw made me shudder. How the hell had Jason found out where my home was? Saying I was surprised would be the understatement of the century. Confused and freaked out would be a little nearer. Maybe I was just paranoid. ‘Hey Ashley’, he said, ‘I know this is a little weird, but I can’t do it any other way. I know you’re confused as hell and maybe a bit freaked out. But the time is running out. I’m so sorry. But I have to.’ There was this look in his eyes that told me he meant what he’d said.’ What exac-‘ I was interrupted by a thundering sound. There was a lightning bolt and then everything went black. As I woke up again I found myself in a bed. A bed that wasn’t mine. I blinked at the light that was on. I was in a room that looked like a hotel room. With the exception that there were no Windows. And that I had no idea where I was.

Thanks for reading. I appreciate that you read it. Really. And I miss you all. I hope you are all doing good. Goodnight or day or whatever. Bye

The five senses tag

Dear Readers,
Yay I have been nominated with The Five Senses Tag. First off I want to thank the wonderful Aspen for nominating me. She’s awesome. Go check her out if you haven’t already . So now I’m gonna have to go over to the next point. Very important Stuff. The Rules.

Rules:

-Thank the person who nominated you

-For each of the five senses (or as many as you do) describe five of your favourite things having to do with that sense. AKA your five favourite smells, sounds, etc.

-Nominate five other people to do this tag

Sights:

• The Sea
• A bookstore full of old and new books mixed
• A cathedral
• Smiling People
• The Stars

Sounds:

• Laughing Babies
• Birds in the trees
• Someone saying I love you ( sorry Aspen this is the same as yours, I know)
• The sound of Music ( not the movie/musical) 🙂
• A certain calmness at  night while looking at the stars

Smells:

I’m sorry I can’t smell. My nose just won’t let me. So here what I’d like to smell if I could:

• Roses ( I heard they smell wonderful)
• Perfume (But I like to be in Perfume stores though,it always looks so nice)
• Flowers ( I know I’ve already said Roses but Flowers in general too)
• Food ( I always hear the people say things like: “Oh, this smells so nice of pancakes”)
• The smell of people ( It’s said that we choose who we get together with by their smell)

Tastes:

• Pasta ( I could always eat Pasta, everyday. But Of course I don’t do this)
• Hot chocolate, when curled up in a warm blanket. But anyways I could always drink it
• Milk, I drink this way too often. But then again there is no too often in this subject.
• Potatoes, these are just awesome.
• American Cookies with a Caramel Macchiato from Starbucks

Things to feel:

• The pages of an old or new book
• A warm blanket wrapped around my legs
• Fluffy socks
• The warmth on my skin in the sun
• Kissing someone

People who I would more than like to tag:

• Captivated~By~Fantasy
• Jason Bucky Roberts
• Ellen
• aVeryAwkwardBlogger
• Isolated_girl

Thanks for reading. I hope you’re all good.  Bye and have a nice day or night or whatever.

 

4 fact survey

Hey Guys,
I have been nominated for the 4 fact survey by lovely Muse. Go check her out she is awesome. Thank you so much again Muse. Now let’s get things done.

4 names people call you other than your real name

• Sweetie says my mom
• My sister calls me crazy names for fun
• Mostly my real name but sometimes my friends call me Girl next door
• And well Radio- Gioia because I talk too much

4 jobs I’ve had

• I once volunteered as a reader in a retirement home
• I once volunteered at a book shop and a library
• Going to High School (that is a job I suppose)
• blogging 😜

4 movies I’ve watched more than once

• that’s a hard one a The Fault in our Stars
• The perks of being a Wallflower
• Divergent
• The Spectacular Now

4 authors I recommend 

• John Green
• Veronica Roth
• Jennifer L. Armentrout
• Frewin Jones

4 places I’ve visited 

• Djerba in Tunesia
• Bretagne in France
• Cyprus in Greece
• London in England

4 things I’d rather be doing right now 

• Studying for a history exam
• Going out for a walk
• Trying to make myself feel better
• Reading

4  foods I’d rather not eat

• fennel
• tripe
• seafood
• spicy food

4 of my favorite foods

• Pasta with Pesto
• Chocolate
• Milk
• Eggs

4  Tv shows I watch 

• Friends
• How I met your mother
• Big Bang Theory
• Doctor who

4 things I’m looking forward to this year

• End of the freshmen year ( holidays)
• Summer
• Visiting London in summer holidays
• Sophomore year

4  things I’m always saying

• What the hell ?
• I’m fucked up !
• I love you
• Hey, how are ya?

4 People I wanna nominate

1. Nimitode
2. Aspen
3. Luna
4. Jerrod

And anyone that hasn’t done this survey yet but wants to.

I wish you guys an awesome day night or whatever.

Yay my second post from my new Home

Hey Guys,
Sorry for my last Post. It was very dark. And it wasn’t a very happy post. But right now I’m happy. And right now I want to smile, maybe even laugh. Because, see I want to live it and I want to remember it right now. I hope you guys are all doing fine. And I hope your finals or what it is you call it are going well. What are you guys all up to. I’d love to know you guys better. So if you just want to chat a bit you can just write. How are you? And you? You all. I am happy about you guys. And I’m just happy anyways. Soon there will be a book review again. But I won’t say when. Because I’m gonna give myself time.And I’m gonna do it when I feel okay. Yeah. Goodnight or good morning Guys. Bye

My first post since a long time

Dear Readers,
This is my post since months. I haven’t been blogging in a long time. And I feel so bad about it. I didn’t have time because we had much exams. And there are still exams that have to be written. I really don’t know why I didn’t get the time to blog. I’ve been changing. My life has changed. People have changed, including me. I haven’t been happy a lot lately. And that was because of several reasons. My exams haven’t been really good. I didn’t study as much as I should’ve. Or I didn’t study as productive as I should’ve. We’ve been moving and yeah this is my first night at my new home. But that one makes me kinda happy. Well, there was this guy. He was my first love. It kinda was like my books had come true. Except that it was true and that I was that happy girl. And I kinda felt like the happiest girl in the world. Everything was great. And I tell you guys being in a hug of someone you love is the best thing. Because I felt save in those arms. Well it didn’t work out in the end. But it’s alright. There’s a beautiful Quote that says:”Don’t let the heart that didn’t love you, keep you from the one that will.” Well. I’m trying to let go of it. And as easy as it sounds it’s not. And I don’t do do it yet. But why am I even telling you this. After you’ve read that one you probably think my blog has changed too, and I’m gonna give you guys an honest answer. Yeah, it has changed. I’ve grown more into my blogging world. But I haven’t been posting a lot lately. And I know that’s not what blogging is about. But is blogging about writing and posting every week? No, I don’t think it is either. I think blogging is about writing when you feel it. And when you want it. Because we should be happy. And if one is sad then one is allowed to. But I think it’s important to live life, every second you’ve got. So we should do things that make us happy. Not things that make us regret. You guys are such a support for me. And I want to thank y’all. Because you guys mean a lot to me. And I don’t know what I’d do. Well probably live my life without knowing you guys. Life is about changing and changing is something not entirely bad. Changing can be actually very good. And it can free yourself. And to feel free is something so entirely awesome. And most of all live in the now. To live in the past makes it impossible to move forwards. To always life in the future makes expectations and these expectations hurt. So live in the now, you can have one again tomorrow. And it will make you happy. If you’ve read this I thank you with all my heart. Please know that I want you to be happy. I want you all to be happy and well. I want you to love fiercely. And I want you to know please live it. Life’s beautiful. Never take someone or something for granted. Appreciate it. Bye and have a nice day or night or whatever.

THE 3 DAY QUOTE CHALLENGE

Dear Readers,

First of all I want to thank the lovely Riya for nominating me with that great award. I love the three days quote Challenge.  She is awesome. Go check her blog.

Before we get on with the quote, here are the rules (again) 🙂

• Thank the person who nominated you.
• Post a quote for three consecutive days.
• Nominate three new bloggers each day.

So today’s Quote is about living in the now.

To all the people that don’t know how to live in the now ( including me ). That they all know that they are. Not that they were or that they will be. They are. We are. Life is. It hasn’t been. It won’t be. It is.

For this philosophical post I nominate three awesome people:

Ambi

Tash

Bibliophile

They are all awesome people. Go check out their blogs.

Bye and keep blogging.