Since yesterday I am 18 years old. I can’t believe it. Time went by so fast. An Adult. Me? I guess so. But the weird thing is, nothing changes much. Except you can now pay bills, vote and be responsible. Well much has happened in these 18 years. And when you’re a little kid you think 18 is the age where everything changes. The age where that one love comes, the good one. The one that stays. But growing up isn’t as exciting as it used to be. I used to believe everything would just work. And all the problems would be just gone. But as a child you believe in Santa as well. Don’t get me wrong here. I am extremely excited that I am 18 now. And I still can’t quite believe myself saying that. But it’s just that I didn’t have that much time to realise that yet. Life is so exciting,
as Peter Pan would say: To live would be an awfully big adventure. As is growing up. I am not grown up yet. It will take some time. You don’t grow up over night, it takes time. But now I am legally grown up. And you do that over night. And everybody asks you how it feels. And you just say old or tired because of the Birthday Party you had at the weekend. But when you think about it, you don’t know the answer. I just wanted to thank everybody for encouraging me my whole life. Thanking them for being there when I needed them. For laughing and crying with me. For simply existing and being a part of my life. And thanks for hugging me, even if you didn’t like it. And most of all thank you my parents. You shaped me and made me the person I am today. You always supported me and I am glad you still do. Thanks to my friends, for I couldn’t live without them. And for they’ve been there all the way. And I mean all sorts of friends. I mean my real life friends and of course you Aspen. You were and are great. Will be I suppose. Thank you all. I love you. And I wouldn’t want to be without you. It’s kinda late right now so I should probably get some sleep. Goodnight y’all. Thanks for reading. I know it’s not much, but it is what it is. Sleep well or have an awesome day. Bye. Yours Gioia
PS: I got a MacBook Air for my birthday. Thanks again Mom.
PPS: I will write soon. Believe me. After Biology exam.
I know it may be too late to apologize for I’ve done wrong this year. But I don’t think there’s a too late for that sort of thing. As long as it comes from the heart. First I hope you had a beautiful Christmas with all your loved ones. A Christmas to forgive and to give love to others. Because you deserve to be loved. And to be happy. Now I want to thank you for 2016. And I won’t be telling you it was great in every way because I’d be lying. But it was great in many ways and it sucked in some ways. That’s okay. It’s good actually. Because I wouldn’t change a thing. I believe that everything is meant to happen. And that we all have both light and dark in ourselves. And that it doesn’t matter if we’re different. Think of a world where everybody is the same. How awfully boring would that be. We’re all unique and that’s okay. It’s good that way. Thank you for being here that whole time. Pro’s and Con’s of the year:
- 100 Followers on My Crazy World Of Books Blog
- First Love ( though this is both pro and con)
- First year of High School finished,2nd Year started
- Survived it
- Kept going
- Not giving up
- Didn’t blog much
- Grades sucked
- First Love
- My thoughts
- Losing control
- Many People died
Now I want to thank certain people that changed my life in 2016. I’d thank you all, believe me. But it would be a too long post and I wouldn’t be able to finish it till tomorrow. So consider yourself as thanked while reading this. Really. You’re all good people. Love yourself. Please. And don’t you dare think you’re talking too much, don’t you dare think you’ve said the words I love you too many times because in I love you there is no such thing as too much. Thank you. All of you. And I want to thank Aspen for being such a great friend. I’ve grown to care about her. I’ve grown to like her. She’s one of my best friends now. And I’m not lying when I’m telling you how strong she is. She’s gone through so much stuff and she’s still standing there. Never giving up. I really look up to that. And I know that she doesn’t think she’s kind but she’s kinder than she thinks she is. For some reason I can’t link her because my computer is being dumb. But she’s awesome and if you aren’t following her, go do it now. And I want to thank Train of Thought for her nice comments that always make me smile. She never fails to make you feel better. She’s really sweet and her blog is awesome. Thank you. And I want to thank Liv. Her Poems have brought tears to my eyes and made me think. The way she writes is making one feel better, it’s full of hope. The hope that everything is going to be okay. And it will. She’s a very nice person. And I think she deserves to be followed. Thank you all.
To end this year with more positivity a quote of Peter Pan by J.M. Barrie: To live would be an awfully big adventure.
I wish you all a wonderful, happy new year and that the new year may bring hope and faith to you and your families. I love you all. Have a Happy New Year.
I know you may not remember me, but I do remember you. So I just wanted to tell you guys that I’m back. And yeah I sure as hell haven’t forgotten the Q&A answers. I’ve just been busy with school. And yeah it’s stressing. And yeah I’m scared I won’t get it sometimes. But who isn’t? I hope you’re all doing great. And I can’t do more than apologise for not being here. I hope you can forgive me one day. Because you’re important to me. And I don’t want to lose you. So keep that. Now let’s move on to the Q&A answers. I know it’s been a long time. But I keep my promises. So let’s do it. Your questions were awesome.
Here they are with the answers of course:
What are some of your favorite books?
Truth be told I can’tell decide. But if I’d have to, I’d pick The Luxen-Series, the Divergent-Series and The Perks of being a Wallflower. 🙂
If you could travel 1 place where would you go?
America. I know it’s a continent but. 🙂
-What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
Honesr? Books. And sometimes Starbucks Charamel Macciato.
-If there was a book that contained everyone’s opinion of you, would you read it?
No. I wouldn’t want to. Because their opinions are theirs. And that’s okay.
-If you could visit anyone in the world, who would it be?
Aparrently it’d be you. And about a billion of dead writers.
do you collect anything and if so, what? what’s the last song you listened to?
I don’t collect anything. Well I collect all the letters and cards I’ve ever gotten but I don’t know if that counts.
Answer two: Tugboat by Galaxie 500. I know it’s old hut I just love old music.
free food or free travelling?
Free travelling. No doubt. But the time for it had to be there too. 🙂
What is the one place you really want to visit?
As I said before I really would like to visit America. And I’d love to visit the Yosemite National park in California. Petersburg in West Virginia. And Chicago.And Nevada.
Which is your favourite genre of books and why?
I love fantasy and love stories. But I love YA Novels as well as Classics. I know you said one but I can’t decide. I can’t say why. It’s just a great place to get away from everything and everyone. You’re just in that world. Away from it all.
Train of thoughts
1. If there was book containing the secrets to your future, would read it, why?
I wouldn’t. I love surprises. And I wouldn’t want to know how I die. And when. Because I am still trying to figure out how to live in the now. So that’s okay.
2. Favourite book?
How am I supposed to know that? But I’d say again:The Luxen-Series, the Divergent-Series and The Perks of being a Wallflower. And TKAMB.
3. Favourite food?
Pasta Pesto. No doubt.
4. When do you think you will stop blogging?
I really don’t know.But I don’t think I’I’ll ever stop. I might just make bigger breaks but never stop. Maybe when I’m dead. 🙂
WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE FOOD?
PASTA PESTO. YOU’RE FUNNY. 🙂
Whats the first thing you saw this morning?
My Alarm clock. And the temperature outside. Which made me want to stay in bed. But I didn’t. 😉
What is the weather like?
Freezing but sunny.
Where is your dream house located?
In my dreams. I don’t know yet. Somewhere in the world where there’s always stars.
I hope you liked my questions and that you can forgive me one day for not blogging much lately. Love y’all. Take care and have a wonderful Pre-Christmas time.
Or should I say YOU 104 AWESOME, WONDERFUL, AMAZING, GREAT AND BEAUTIFUL PEOPLE. THANK YOU SOO MUCH. ALL OF YOU. EACH AND EVERYONE OF YOU. THANK YOU SOO MUCH. IS THIS EVEN TRUE? IS THAT POSSIBLE? YAAAAAAAAAAY. OMG. THANK YOU!!!!!!!
Maybe that was a bit stupid, I know. But I really don’t care. Because right now I am happy. I’d love to thank all of you each and hug you but since we’re on that funny planet called blogosphere in the Galaxy called Internet, I can’t. But consider yourself as hugged and possibly kissed as you’re reading this. You are so important to me and I wanted to show you how much you matter. I really wouldn’t know what to do without you. My first follower was Shay she showed me what it meant to be on the blogosphere in the first place. She’s got an awesome blog and is awesome herself. And Shay, if you read this you should know that I am not lying. My hundredth follower was Dice he made me jump and freak out, running around in my room and squeaking because he gave me my pre-first-blogversary present. In between I want to thank Aspen because she’s just great. She’s the funniest person to talk to and well she’s a good person. A really good person. She helped me so much without even wanting something in return. Thank you Aspen. Let’s move on to a different subject. Soon mycrazyobsessionwithbooksandenglish16 will be 1 year old. Believe it or not one year can go by soo fast. Well it’s not yet one year. But almost. You are all great. You helped me through shitty times and told me it would get better. You encouraged me to keep blogging and to keep writing. Thank you. To celebrate this I will do a Q&A. But I need you to help me. I’ve never done this before and I have no Idea how to do it. Could you please help me with the in the comments? I’d be very thankful. I give you something in advance which is that you may ask any Question except too personal Questions like Home, Name, Address, you know stuff like that. There is no specified subject in this Q&A so ask what you want to know. I guess that’s all for today. And hopefully I will write a review soon so stay tuned for that. I may post some of my poems. Or I may write a Life Update. Let me know what you’d rather want from me. I hope you are all doing wonderful.
Bye I guess
PS: Just that you know THANK YOU !
PPS: Just that you know I’m randomly filling that post because I don’t want to stop it!
PPPS: That doesn’t even exist. Bye for real this time.
This is the beginning of a story I’ve been writing at lately. I hope you like this. If you don’t tell me in a fair feedback what to do better. So here we go. I’m doing this for the first time.
The sun was already shining brightly through the curtains when I woke up. Again I had slept in. It sucked. And if that wasn’t enough, the shower didn’t work. I’d have to fix it soon. Mom couldn’t do it. She’d been that way since, well since dad had died. She was sleeping all night and day. First I’d thought it would pass, like every grief did one day. But as much as I hoped, it didn’t. She wasn’t going to wake up for fixing the shower. She wasn’t even going to wake up to just say ‘good morning, honey’ like she used to when I was little. But I didn’t have time to think of it now. I had to get to school. So I just grabbed my bag and got to my car. I’d be late for class. But who cared, anyways? They never did. But then again, I’d have to get through it, like everything else. As I pulled into the parking lot the warning bell had already rang. I hurried into class. Maths. My absolute worst class. I sat down and class began. As boring as always our maths teacher explained some Trig. I was dreading to have break. Next class. English. That’s where I noticed him. He came through the door and sat down right beside me. ‘Hey’ he said ‘I’m Jason. And well I’m obviously the new kid.’ He looked hot. Jason was tall, had beautiful green eyes, dark wavy hair and smelled of woods. Oh really. What was I thinking? I hadn’t even known him for five minutes. ‘Oh umm, well I’m Ashley. Not new here obviously.’ As if I had to say this. ‘ Nice to meet you Ashley’ and then class began. The morning passed as usual. With the exception that I now had someone sitting next to me in English. Then lunch came and I already expected to be alone for myself eating lunch, as always. But I had been wrong. There he was. No wait, there was this new boy that didn’t attract me in any way. Better. Well that wasn’t exactly the truth but it was definitely better. I took a tray of something that should be a baked potato and some meat. There was a table with no people. That’s where I sat down, as always. Then Jason sat down next to me. ‘ You mind if I join you? See you’re the only one I know so far.’ Really? I couldn’t help but try not to smile or freak out. ‘ No, not really. And in the matter of a fact you already sit here.’ We ate in silence. An awkward silence. Well, then somehow afternoon went by. And by the end of the day I was in a really bad mood. The strange things started again. I knew, because they always did when I was excited, frightened or angry. But I had learned to control it somehow. Sometimes it still didn’t work. I went home and thought about it. And I knew that there would be more. But first I had to get some milk. I was obsessed with milk. I took a sip. Ahhh, that felt good. My school bag was laying untouched in the corner. I opened it and took out some paper and a pen. I started writing a story. Which was what I always did when it started again. Because in these stories I had control of things. I could decide who was treated badly and who was not. I could decide what problems they had. And I could decide who lived and who died. So I started. It helped. But then I got distracted. The doorbell rang. Who would that be at 7:30 p.m.? I took my time to open it. What I saw made me shudder. How the hell had Jason found out where my home was? Saying I was surprised would be the understatement of the century. Confused and freaked out would be a little nearer. Maybe I was just paranoid. ‘Hey Ashley’, he said, ‘I know this is a little weird, but I can’t do it any other way. I know you’re confused as hell and maybe a bit freaked out. But the time is running out. I’m so sorry. But I have to.’ There was this look in his eyes that told me he meant what he’d said.’ What exac-‘ I was interrupted by a thundering sound. There was a lightning bolt and then everything went black. As I woke up again I found myself in a bed. A bed that wasn’t mine. I blinked at the light that was on. I was in a room that looked like a hotel room. With the exception that there were no Windows. And that I had no idea where I was.
Thanks for reading. I appreciate that you read it. Really. And I miss you all. I hope you are all doing good. Goodnight or day or whatever. Bye
Obsessed we are
With every little thing
Obsessed we are
With the thought
Of a long life
Obsessed she is
With the thought
That he is hers
Obsessed she is
With him and his voice
Obsessed he is
With no one but himself
Obsessed he is
With his beauty
And his world
Obsessed I am
I cannot let him go
Obsessed I am
The problem is
I can’t go with the flow.
Obsessed they are
With silver and with gold
Obsessed they are
With glory and with might
Obsessed it was
With nothing but real love
Obsessed it was
With peace and inner beauty
Thanks for reading. I know I haven’t been writing lately, but I thought I might just do it now. The title of this poem is taken from the Daily Post one word prompt. I hope you like it. And I hope you are all alright. Bye and have a nice day, night or whatever.