Go Set A Watchman

Dear Readers,
My first book review in months maybe even a year. I don’t remember. Life is getting on so fast. One moment you can’t wait for the next year to start and the next it’s already around Autumn and you realise how fast it has gone by. Can you even catch up? Well you don’t have time to answer that question and next thing you know you’ll be waiting for 2 years to just go by so you’ll finally be in the real world. Today I’m going to tell you about a book which I’m not really sure about. This doesn’t mean I didn’t enjoy every word of it. But let’s just say, sometimes change is a hard thing. You have to accept it. As everything in this world. So let’s just start over.

A 26-year-old Scout Finch returns to her hometown Maycomb county. She’s been away for years and at the first glance not much seems to have changed. But nothing’s ever as it seems. Things are different, Jem has already died and Atticus is getting old. But Henry is still there and she loves him, or at least she thinks she does. For a moment everything seems like before. And life seems to get on without any problems. But then she listens in on a meeting. Atticus and Henry both sit there with those people that want to push the segregation to another level. Calpurnias son Zeebo is in trouble and needs a good lawyer, back in the days Atticus would’ve helped without even hesitating for a moment. But now Jean-Louise is not so sure anymore. Childhood doesn’t tell you anything about the unfair and sad truth, full of lies you believe because you don’t even think about them not being true. She keeps having flashbacks from her childhood. Times when she believed that it didn’t make a difference wether you were black or white. Where you were worth equally. Things that her father told her. And she believed that it was his truth. Even Calpurnia sees her as the white person that betrayed her. And her Uncle isn’t helping. Scout feels like the world that she’s known her whole life is falling apart. The people she trusts and loves aren’t the same anymore. She doesn’t know if anything was ever real. But maybe that’s just another lesson life is trying to teach her. Maybe that’s why she went back to Maycomb county. To figure it out by herself. The title of the book isn’t
“Go Set A Watchman” out of coincidence. It’s a phrase out of the Bible where God sends a Watchman to earth to tell him whats going on down there. It says “Go, set a watchman, let him declare what he seeth” And maybe Scout is some sort if a Watchman to tell them that they’ve gotten out of control. Jean Louise might be the one to get them out of that mess.
We need more Jean Louises in this world. We need Atticus Finches to teach this to us in the first place. I really enjoyed this book. It took me quite some time though. The reason for that is, that it starts off right into the Story, they do mention what has happened in the meantime but you get overthrown by the amount of facts. It’s a book everyone should read because it’s, as is To Kill A Mockingbird, a story that imprisons you and forces you to think about society. It forces you to overthink certain views. It teaches you that life is never as it seems and that you have to live with changes and with the passing of time itself. It shows you that you should stand up for your ideas no matter what others say. It shows you a lot of thing about life. And I love how the book jumps between her past and her Now. It brings some dynamic into the story. I really loved this book because it gave me the chance to think again. Read this book and remember an extremely talented and wise woman who died in 2015 aged 89 years. Harper Lee.
Read, live, love, laugh and enjoy life for we’ve only got this one. So think about what you do or what you say, think about the consequences, think of the outcomes. But don’t let what-ifs stop you. They are just as useless as if-only-I-Had. You can’t change the past, and it’s not what all of this is about anyways. Neither can you see the future and control it. You have to live life. And accept the fact that things can change and that they’re not always as they seem at first sight. That’s life. And don’t you dare think you don’t deserve a happy life, because you do. You all do. If there are things that happen that make you think it’s too easy, try not to. I know it’s extremely hard for I can’t even do that one myself. But at least try. Because you deserve those things. Each and everyone of you. Love yourselves, you are wonderful, unique human beings. And please try. I’m begging you to try. Because you deserve the chance to live a fulfilled life. Have a nice evening, morning or night or whatever it is at yours.
Yours sincerely and truly
Gioia

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What’s the reason?

Why are we here?
Is there a purpose?
Is there a reason why?
Or are we just here because?

Questions all the time
No answers, no ideas
We’ll never be able to
Answer those Questions

Do we have to answer them?
Or maybe it’s just one of those
Things that just are
without a purpose.

We’ll never be able
to answer those questions.
And yet we ask them everyday
Because it’s just us.
It’s what we’re supposed to do.

We’ll never know why
We’ll never know who
We’ll never know what
We won’t even know when.

It scares us
We’re not in control
And no matter how hard we try
We’re running into a wall so thick
We can’t break it.

We’re just here
And some days it’s
clear like a blue sky
We’re just here to be here.

We’ll never know. But I believe whatever happens we’ll be okay. Because we’re alive and we’re now. So let’s try to live here. Not be sacred about the future and what might happen if, only scares the hell outta us. We should be here. Who knows what’s waiting for us tomorrow. It doesn’t matter. Because we can control today and tomorrow we’ve got another chance. Life is full of second chances. Maybe this is the purpose. For us to find out how to learn from our mistakes. How to live with them. How to live with our choices and with the consequences. To figure out how to live. Maybe, maybe not. We should just live and maybe we’ll find out by just living. Have a nice day.
Carpe Diem. Live! Bye 🙂

Love: Choice or Fate

I do not believe
Do you understand?
I do not believe
I never will

I do not want to
But I already did
I’ve fallen for you
I do not want to

Coincidental fate
I do believe
You’ll bring me there
Coincidental fate
I do believe

Don’t live for no one
Live for life itself
Don’t live for no one
For life will keep you save.

See the stars in the night sky
Infinite. Are they? Or is it just
Lies. Dead stars that we see
years after they’ve died. See them.

We aren’t infinite.
We’ll never be.
But we are more than that
We are alive. Every single moment.

There’s no point
But there doesn’t have to be
Because we are now
There’s no point

Hope you liked this. Yeah. It’s me. Hard to believe I’m still here. Live. And live now. Yesterday doesn’t matter, nor does tomorrow. Only thing that matters is today. So live now and enjoy it.
Yours truly 🙂

When will I learn from it?

You used to be my everything,
You used to make me full,
You used to make me feel what now
Feels far away and there seems,
No end

I am thankful for what
You gave me.
I am thankful for our
Time.

I used to love you,
You knew I did,
I used to love you,
But that was my version of it
Not yours. Never was. Never will.

It’s been so much time,
And yet my heart didn’t stop,
I’m still alive
But am I really or am I not?

When will I finally see,
The past is gone,
The future is unknown,
And the now is now.

When will I accept,
We were never meant
To be together,
Never meant to love each other.

But deep inside
my heart will know,
It will finally heal,
One day hopefully.

She’s falling

Don’t you see

She’s falling

Don’t you hear her

She’s screaming

 

She’s falling

She’s trying to

Get a hold of

Something solid

 

But her hands

Can’t seem to reach

It, because there’s

Nothing left to hold

 

Her everything is

Gone forever, there’s

No turning back

Not now, not tomorrow

 

I want to keep

her from falling

But I can’t

I won’t stop her.

 

 

Obsessed

Obsessed we are
With every little thing
Obsessed we are
With the thought
Of a long life

Obsessed she is
With the thought
That he is hers
Obsessed she is
With him and his voice

Obsessed he is
With no one but himself
Obsessed he is
With his beauty
And his world

Obsessed I am
I cannot let him go
Obsessed I am
The problem is
I can’t go with the flow.

Obsessed they are
With silver and with gold
Obsessed they are
With glory and with might

Obsessed it was
With nothing but real love
Obsessed it was
With peace and inner beauty

Thanks for reading. I know I haven’t been writing lately, but I thought I might just do it now. The title of this poem is taken from the Daily Post one word prompt. I hope you like it. And I hope you are all alright. Bye and have a nice day, night or whatever.

The Problem with forever

Dear Readers,
It’s been about a month that I haven’t written on here. And I’m not gonna say I’m sorry. I’m not. I hope you’re all right. There are Stories that make us overthink our lives and what we have. By reading some stories, we can finally see what live really is about and how lucky we are. We often take loving and caring parents for granted. People that love us unconditionally because of who we are to them. But that book made me realize that it’s not granted. The Problem with forever is sensitizing a certain subject that is still very common, sadly, to many people in this world. And yet it’s often hidden. But away from these thoughts of my messed up little mind to the book that really made me reread the last words over and over again.

Mallory “Mouse” Dodge is 17 and after four years of being home-schooled she wants to do her last year of High School at Lands High in Baltimore. Mallory has had a terrible past as a foster kid in a house where she learned that not making a sound was the best way to survive. In that house where she spent a decade in, she’s had a friend called Rider Stark who’s protected her all that time and took in abuse for when she was in trouble. They were best friends, only them against the world. He promised back then to keep her save forever. She was luckily adopted by the Rivases her loving and caring foster parents. Now she thought all the time she’d never see Rider again after they were split up. But the first person that sits next to her in speech class is, guess who, Rider. Well not the Rider of when they were twelve, but a hot, handsome, protecting and sexy version of it. Mallory can’t believe it neither can he. Problem is: 18-year old Rider has a mean girlfriend. Rider has changed on the outside. But in some ways he’s still the same. As in protecting Mouse whenever he thinks it’s needed. But Mouse has changed too. She’s learned to speak up. Even though it’s hard, a few words are a success. She doesn’t want Rider to protect her anymore. But he still protects her and blames himself for what happened the night they were split up. Soon Mallory realizes that she doesn’t have ‘Just friends’ feelings for Rider but really loves him. Mouse has always been scared that the past won’t ever leave her. That she’ll always be that girl that can’t speak up and can’t be in noisy places. That she’ll be this way forever. But while she’s making progress Riders world starts to fall apart. Will she speak up to those she loves? Will she be the one that picks him up this time? Rider’s got a nice foster home too, but he’s not adopted and he doesn’t really feel home. One fateful night one of his brothers gets in trouble and Rider does what he did then he protects he protects his brother Jayden. Will he succeed saving Jayden?
That book has showed me that live can be taken away so fast and that we shouldn’t take everything for granted because it’s not. What made me think was the relation to The Velveteen Rabbit. You probably know the story if not there will be soon a post about it. It’s about a rabbit that wants to be real. Which means it wants to be loved and cared about. That’s it’s biggest wish. In the book The Problem with forever there’s a relation between the characters and said rabbit because all these years Rider and Mallory wanted to be loved by someone when they weren’t. The last sentence made me think. Here it comes. ” Forever was simply a promise of more. Forever was a work in progress. And I couldn’t wait forever.”
And When I read this I thought it’s so true. There’s also one thing I learned reading this book. It’s all about trying in live. It’s not about failing or succeeding. It’s about trying. Because it doesn’t matter if you fail. It just matters that you try. And what’s also something important to know in live is that you have a choice whether you believe in what people think or if you do your own thing. You don’t have to feel embarrassed, for example, when you give a presentation in speech class. It’s only embarrassing when you let it be embarrassing. Alright this was a long post for an awesome book. Just read it. You won’t regret it. Thank you for reading this. This book just made me realise how lucky I am. I hope you guys enjoyed this and it somehow brought the message in. Have a nice day or night or whatever.

Some kind of a poem

Dear Readers,
Here’s something I’ve been trying out lately. Well it was actually yesterday but I like the word lately. That’s why. So this something is some kind of a poem that isn’t a poem and that doesn’t have nothing such as structure. But there are things that return in it. And they are important. Well at least to me. Just that you know it’s neither me nor any person I know. If there are through any coincidences people that have some similarities it’s important to know that this is out of fantasy and that it may not turn out how it turns out for her in the end. So here we go with my not poem:
“Hey, she said many times. Hey she said and wanted it to be different.
Hey she said and tried to do things that could convince him. But then she realised it wasn’t what she should say. And she tried the thing she should’ve. She said it. She said Goodbye. Goodbye she said when things went south. Goodbye she said when she saw her life doing crazy things. Goodbye she said to him. Goodbye she said to the love she had for him. Goodbye she said. I’m dying she said when she felt the pain that was tearing her up from the inside. I’m dying she said when she came to the point where she knew that it would never be like it had been. I’m dying she said when she laid down on her bed at night and she was thinking about him. I’m dying she said when she felt the pain that still reminded her of the time she was happy. I’m dying she said when she laughed and laughed because her friends had told her a joke. I’m alive she said when she woke up and felt happy. I’m alive she said when she had moved on and had realised that some people just weren’t meant to be together. I’m alive she said and that was why she was happy. I’m alive she said when finally summer came and she was out with her friends. I’m alive she said when she listened to music that made her happy. I’m alive she said because she loved life and it knew. She smiled at the sun. She smiled at her mom. She smiled at her friends. She smiled at herself. And she was happy because she knew.”
That’s it. I hope you liked it. And I’d be honoured if you’d commented. You guys are just awesome. And if anyone has gone through a break up lately or going through it right now please know you are wonderful people. And you are worth it. It sure hurts as hell. And it takes time. Take that time. Only so you can heal fully. Suffer from the pain it brings to you. But don’t let it rip you apart. It really will hurt. And you will have days were you want to die. But remember always you’re worth it. You’re worth fighting for but that other person didn’t. So let that person go. It hurts like hell. And I myself haven’t gotten over it yet. There will be the person that will love you for you are and that person will love you with all their heart. That person won’t let you go and won’t stop fighting for you. That person will see your inner beauty. And that person will never take you for granted. Because no one should take you for granted. You’re not. And everyone that doesn’t see this isn’t worth it. I’m sorry for such a post. But I just needed to get it out. And crying is nothing to be ashamed of. It’s alright. But one day you’ll wake up and feel free and happy. You will be happy again.
Bye and have a nice day or night or whatever.

Dear Readers,
Yay I have holidays. I have been longing to write that post. I just didn’t get on it. So the first post I’ll do these holidays will be about, guess what. If you don’t mind I tell you now. About books. Yes that was a very difficult question I know. But you’ll get rewarded. With a review about the 4th book of the Luxen Series. And by the time I guess you know that Daemon is awesome. But this book isn’t about that.

I was so thrilled by the end of the third book and I was like. Help me I’m gonna die. So I was very excited about that book. And you don’t know me when I’m very excited. I read it in a bunch of days and almost couldn’t let it down. I actually read it at school in lunch breaks. Katy has been taken away from Daedalus. When she wakes up, everything is burning. Her whole body is drenched in pain. Katy can’t believe what happened. But at least Daemon hasn’t get caught. She doesn’t even know where she is. And the freaking part is that she is in Area 51. They tell her things that she can’t know if they are true or if they are just lies to keep her quiet. Even though there is a guy called Archer that seems to really get how she is feeling he doesn’t show if he can be trusted. And if that wouldn’t be enough there is always something worse. The first one she sees when she wakes up in her cell is Blake. She’s almost freaking out. But who wouldn’t. There is something different. Daemon tells what he’s feeling because they’re away from each other. It’s the worst time for Daemon. Kat has been caught. And that wasn’t the plan. He even blows up a whole room filled with onyx in the community and stands up against his own kind. He will burn the world down to save her. He’ll do whatever has to be done to free her. And that even means leaving his family behind for a non-given time being. Now he understands Dawson. He feels exactly the same thing that Dawson has felt. It’s eating him away. While Daemon is doing whatever he can do, Kat is being forced to fight against hybrids that Daedalus knows what she is capable of. She doesn’t really do it, until they bring Blake in. Daemon doesn’t know any of this. He gets himself caught on purpose and get’s pissed off with onyx everyday from now on. Will he get to see Katy? Nancy Husher at promised. But was there a time where she could be trusted? Very unlikely. Would he make her keep it? Hell yeah. Katy gets injured all the time. She misses Daemon. Every day Daedalus shows her new things of truth. Then Daemon is brought in. Although she is concerned why he’s there she needed him. What no one of, both Katy and Daemon, knows is the fact that there is another species created by Luxen and hybrids. Will they destroy the world? Is Daedalus not the bad guys? Who can be trusted? And who is Archer, the special guy? So many Questions that will be answered if you read the book.
I really found the feelings and thoughts of Daemon very interesting. It was a change, but a good one. You can see how strong his feelings are.
Please read that book. It is really worth it. I almost didn’t get that post done because I couldn’t find the right words.It’s just so good. Drop all the work you had to get done and read that book. I hope you are all good. Please Enjoy that book. It’s worth being read and being honored. I guess. Bye and have a nice day evening or whatever time it is where you live right now.

Opal

Dear Readers,
I know I haven’t written much lately but I had much school stuff going on. I wish I could write more but at the moment it’s not something I can do. I really have to get better. And I am scared that my teachers will tell me that I am not good enough. Well, let’s not talk about that. Let’s talk about the third book in the Luxen Series. If you don’t remember the second one is Onyx.

Now that Blake has revealed the fact that he’s a total betrayer and works for the DOD Katy and Daemon with crew are in danger more than before. And the Dawson that came back isn’t the same as before. He barely talks and almost doesn’t eat anything. But who can blame him. No one except himself knows what has happened with him the time he was with Daedalus. And it’s getting more and more difficult to keep him save because he wants to get Bethany out of their hands. What really doesn’t help to make the situation better is a perfectly feeling, living and damn Blake that walks back into Biology as if nothing has happened. Pretending that Adam isn’t dead because of him. And now he’s blackmailing Kat Daemon and the crew. He’s back. And forces them to trust him because if not he’ll let Nancy Husher know. And report everything. What’s even more suspicious is that the DOD hasn’t checked on them for a quite a while now. Blake has a Deal that could help them get Beth out. But do they have a chance? Not really. The problem is that Will hasn’t phoned Kats mom yet. So no one knows if the mutation held. Now they at least try to get into Mount Weather, what they don’t know I’d that there are Onyx Shields everywhere with Onyx in gas form. Can they manage to get in a second time? For Dawson? Is it even possible to get immune to Onyx? So many Questions that they can’t answer. And something is weird about that Luc kid that helped them to get in. Well if that would be the only Problems. Can Dee ever forgive Katy about Adams Death? What if not? Kat’s feeling guilty about him. But she didn’t kill him, didn’t she? Dee won’t believe her. So many Problems and so few hours for Kat and Daemon alone. Almost no Kitten time. What about them?

Please read that book. It’s so totally worth it. Let everything what was in your mind drop and read that book. I want you to understand. Forget about everything that you had to do and read it. It won’t disappoint you. I couldn’t believe it in the end. So let yourself get captured in the prison of words and feel what Kat feels. What Daemon pretends to be like but you guys know as much as I do that he’s a good boy. And don’t let me down on this please, I am desperate that you get it.
Bye and have a nice day or evening or whatever

PS: I missed you guys all. Just that you know. I am so thankful to all of you.