I’m not quite sure anymore

Dear Readers,
I’m sorry that I haven’t written much lately. I can’t tell why, but I just didn’t get to it. I don’t know if I’m the one that always makes it messed up. I feel like I always mess it up. And I don’t know what I can do to make me feel like it’s not that way. And then I think I am not worth it. Well all of that. And if I think that, I feel so selfish. And that makes me feel bad. I really shouldn’t think that much of myself. But I do. I’m so sorry. About all of it. And I don’t even have a reason to feel sorry. But I feel sorry. And I’m scared that people don’t mean it. That people pretend to feel something for me. Well someone in particular. And I can’t get that person out of my head. And I’m always scared that I will do a terrible mistake. Maybe that person won’t like me anymore. Won’t like like me anymore. And I can’t change my feelings.

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15 thoughts on “I’m not quite sure anymore

  1. Hey, this is your blog. Post what you want, you’ll get followers no matter what. But that’s not even what matters. This is your place, it should be a safe place.

    Everyone here loves you G, I pinky promise. Here, you don’t need to worry. Don’t translate problems into places where they don’t need to be. You are perfect at being you and all of us love you for THAT.

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  2. I’m sorry you feel this way but first of all don’t feel bad for not writing, write when you feel like it, for yourself. And let me assure you that you’re not always messing things up even if it seems that way. It’s okay to make mistakes sometimes but not everything that goes wrong is your fault and sometimes there’s nothing you can really do about it so just try to acknowledge when things go wrong that it might not be your fault.
    And you are so worth it. You are worth everyone’s care, love, support and everything. Self-respect is NOT selfish. It is necessary and it is kind. You know what, maybe one or two people don’t feel something for you but I know there are so many people who do care about you and who hate to see you feeling this way. I know it’s hard to trust people and accept that they care that much about you but I think if you asked for help or anything like that you would really see how much they are willing to be there for you. We are all scared of making mistakes and I think that’s natural but all of us do make mistakes sometimes. Mistakes are human. Maybe some people won’t like you if you make mistakes but that’s alright, because those people are the people who wouldn’t care anyway and they aren’t people you need in your life, trust me. Those who will be there for you won’t leave even if you mess up. You don’t have to change your feelings. It’s okay to feel like this. But you just have to try and change some of your views or yourself and others. *hugs* ❀

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  3. This place was never about us and it shouldn’t be, this is your place and its up to you when you decide to use it. This will be your ‘safe house’ no lies, no mistrust. We all love you even if that is hard to believe. You are not selfish to feel the way you do, its natural to feel like you’ve made mistake after mistake. I may not know you as well as the others do but I am always here to help and support you through anything. I hope you find some positivity soon. Stay strong β™‘ xx

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  4. G, I have honestly told you a million times that the best form of you is the true you. I don’t know why you always think that you mess up. Frankly, you may have disappointed some people, or you may have not. But not being able to fulfil others’ expectations is not a good enough reason to underestimate yourself, okay? It hurts me when you do that. Right there. *points to heart* Pang! So just stop. And do not be formal with anyone here, at least not me. This is your place, do whatever you want to do. On a more happy note, I love ya!!!! πŸ’œπŸ’œπŸ’œβ˜Ί

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